An account

For some reason I cannot really recall the first part of this dream or how I got lucid in the first place, kind of weird as I was lucid, and with some good quality as well. My recall started when I was looking at the seat of the living room of one of my prior homes in M. The dream could have started somewhere entirely different, and I am sure that I was lucid for some minutes already and that I did something else, also I know that my girlfriend was in the room and that for once she did not just exist, but we were actually talking about a lot of stuff. I looked up from the seat I was staring at (something was lying on it but I do not know what it was) so now I was seeing the aquarium in the back of the room. My mind was clear and this time I wanted to summon my dream guide for real. I focused my mind and clarified what my dream guide should be and do, and then tried it. Even though I knew I had quite a bit of control all I got was a piece of wood... I then tried to pull a person out of it in case someone was hiding in that shape, again without success, it was indeed a dead piece of wood. Then there was a weird scene with some tiny cassettes I cannot explain, but I know that they told me that as a matter of fact I do not have anything like a actual Dream Guide. Maybe my girlfriend is my Dream Guide and I should try to teach her how to make me lucid in dreams and stuff like that. Maybe I should scrap the idea of a Dream Guide in my dreams altogether in favor of focusing on something else. Oh and the kind of dream guide I was talking about is something internal, not a spirit guide. I already wondered whether my summon attempts maybe went in that direction or whether I maybe should try to summon a spirit guide intentional. Anyway, the fact that I had a lucid so fast again is a good sign, it is now going up for me and I have a little hope that it will never go down again. Also I woke up a lot more often and can recall at least 2 more dreams as well as being yet a little step closer to WILDing thanks to talks about not trying to stay aware but simply choosing to do so, it really made more of a difference to take that approach than I even was expecting.