Hovering

I died. I do not know how, I do not know why. I just knew that. I found myself hovering in void. A few hundred of metres away there was other man hovering. It was absolute darkness there. I felt that I am stuck there. It did not matter to me. I observed my surrounding... unattached observer. No will, no want, no need of anything... Then I saw that that man started to glow stronger and stronger until he dissolved in blinding white light. I remained there alone, not that it mattered anything to myself. But I started to be curious- what happened? And I got answer. That man started to show humility. He was taken away. The place where we were was purgatory. And I felt that I have to do the same to be taken too. So I tried. And I failed. And I failed again. And I asked- how can I feel humility, when I feel nothing at all? When I feel total peace? No answer. But I started to feel inadequate. With that I started to feel many different emotions... the peace I was in was taking cracks. But I observed it and concentrated on countermeasures till I was again in total peace and timelessness. I felt that I do right thing. I cannot be dependant of outside forces, it is way of slavery... I concentrated... on transfer... Actinic flash and I vanished. Remarks The consciousness was really strong in this dream, much, much stronger than in waking life. Although I did not know that it was only a dream. Therefore I marked this as nonlucid dream even if level of lucidity was so strong. This dream got me thinking about my life philosophy. I deviated from what I learned from my parents... we are roman catholics... But I took quite different philosophy as time went... my experiences are stronger than any books or speeches of priests... It got me thinking whether my way is right. Whether I am not lead by other, darker forces. Away from "god". I was unable to feel regret... I felt regret that I cannot feel regret for a short time until I found what I do. But that does not feel right in light of what I learned from my parents. On other side... what is right and what is wrong... I need to research this in fullness, in changed state of consciousness. I had this dream probably because of discussion I had at previous dream.