An account

I begin by visiting a friend that I am not extremely close to in my waking life, but in the dream it feels as if she is my closest companion. The feelings are not sexually attractive though, she has more of a sister-figure feeling. I enter and we begin watching TV together, she has just moved in to her new apartment, so there is no furniture yet, just a TV sitting on the carpet, so as we lean against the wall, I extend my arm so that she can be more comfortable. She plays sports often, so when her legs begin to ache, I pushed down on her knees to help her stretch them out as I do have some knowledge of sports related injuries, I plan to be a doctor one day. Again, all of this up to this point feels sincerely friendly but nothing more on my side. She then does something peculiar, at first I almost think it is an accident but I soon realize she is purposefully pulling up her shirt. I reach and pull it back down, preventing her from exposing herself with a feeling of uneasiness and guilt as I feel I have led her on. She begins to almost cry saying that she knew she was not pretty enough, but I quickly stop her and tell her that that is a lie. I tell her that she is indeed very beautiful, and that it is not her lack of anything that is preventing me from wanting her. I inform her that I am very happy in my relationship with my girlfriend (waking life girlfriend), that we have been together for almost 4 years and are practically engaged at this point. In the dream I thought this would bring her some relief, that it was not that I found her repulsive but that I was just not available to any female because of my outstanding long-term relationship. Instead, she began to bawl and weep uncontrollably. This pained my heart, seeing a girl cry like that was killing me. I repeatedly asked her what was the matter, and why my use of the word engaged made her become so upset. She got up and ran out of the house and I chased her, begging to know what was making her so sad. When I went outside to try and find her, she was gone, and I woke up.