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#344 - DEILD - 3:34AM WBTB 2:00AM 1\4 cup coffee concentrate. This lucid is one of those dreams where I end up taking astral "projectory" too literally. It is my fault for listening to some idiot woman on a podcast yesterday. I was just looking for fresh techniques and ideas but once again I got sucked up into the "what if". The techniques and practices work wonders but the rest is horseshit. Yes, repeat after me AP is horseshit! However, the technique is great for WILD. That may be harsh, but perhaps I am just pissed that I missed a lot of points in this one! Worse, this dream spoke to my old fears of acting out my lucid dreams in a sort of lucid sleepwalk. I am calling this one a DEILD although I am not completely sure. Perhaps it was an in-dream-WILD but this is close enough. I am working at my first job again, <PERSON>. I have not dreamed this one in a while. I am there way early so I go back outside but my parents who have dropped me off left already. I put my apron on and decide to go ahead and clock in early. Another employee is hanging out in the lobby and tells me I dropped my name tag. I look in time to see it scatter under a table. I find myself in vibrations. I have no memory between this and the non-lucid dream above, but I know that I was purposely was trying to WILD/DEILD. For some reason, I think I am in a recliner at my parents house. I spend a few seconds controlling vibrations then get up having the sensation of leaving my body. I am excited and decide to fly around the room. I see my mom sitting on a couch. I stop and do a dance in front of her then touch her face and say [something] to her. She seems not to notice me. I think it is funny that I am spying on her out-of-body. I sit down next to her, suddenly feeling oddly tired. I feel like the dream is ending so I let my eyes close. When I open them, I think I have actually woken up. I ask my mom how I moved from the recliner when I only was astral protecting. She said something to the effect of my energy body being still closely connected to my physical body. She tells me that she saw me walking around the room but I just remember it differently because I was sleep walking while dreaming. I argue that this cannot happen. I explain that when I feel vibrations, my physical body is paralyzed and cannot possibly move. But still, maybe she is right. This would be the first time a waking observer saw my physical body during an OBE. I feel incredibly disappointed that all my lucid experiences have always been nothing but a sham. I fall silent. Mom gets up to go to bed and I follow her not wanting to give up on the conversation. She lays down and I sit next to her on the other side. My dad is absent and I assume he is working nights again. I say, "But what about those times I go outside or teleport halfway across the universe? What am I really doing?" I have thoughts of a madman wondering the neighborhood in his underwear. No I cannot believe that. I just cannot. Mom interrupts my thoughts, "I miss my gravity." I am confused, "What?" "My mirror. I miss my gravity mirror." She says as she touches her face like she has a zip or something like that.. I have no idea what a "gravity mirror" is but I do not care right now. I continue, "Maybe I should put a piece of masking tape at the top of the door at night and see if it is been broken." I consider whether or not this is a reliable method as I wake up.