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October .18th .2012 MAP 1 Mantras; 1. I attract dreams that help me astrally project. NOTE: I have omitted two of the suggested mantras because I think I have got a grasp on their intended goals. They basically drill the dream journaling routine in your brain. I have got that covered. "Nuked Blues" Keywords: high heels, k* high school, activities sign-up. I am taking a friend upstairs to see <PERSON>. When we get to him, I see that he is in bad shape. As if someone stuck him in the microwave. I am surprised and embarrassed at the state of him. Players and Connections: A close friend Event Sequence: Up the stairsInspect the plantQuestion realityAccepted realityEmbarrassed by failure Symbolism: Seemingly literal. Signposts: Poor quality reefer. Questions: Why was I embarrassed by the state of the plant as opposed to just upset. Thoughts, feelings, and guesswork: I prematurely trimmed a tiny piece of <PERSON> to test. I used a quick-dry method involving a low powered microwave session. I am guessing that this dream was telling me that if my plant turns out unimpressive, I can not know if it was my premature trim job, the nature of the plant etc. _ _ MAP 2 Omitted MAP 3 Mantras; 1. I am a spirit body, capable of experiencing dimensions beyond this. 2. I have the ability to separate from my body, return safely and remember. "Potluck" Keywords: Party, food, embarrassment. I find myself at a party. I believe it is at some version of <PERSON> and <PERSON>'s. There are countless dishes of food. <PERSON> and <PERSON> are here. They are together. I think I ask her if she is out of Ashland for good. I am sitting on the couch eating the plate I have made; mac and cheese, stuffing; a roll shaped like a hot dog bun. I remember being one of the first to eat after the food was set out. I see a funny shaped glass bowl. It has many contours and etched lines. I realize I am at my dream home when I am standing outside the living/dining room area. I have a ladle full of some sort of beef stew. I taste the edge. I consider rinsing the ladle off in the theoretical sink. I probably would have just put it back but I sense someone saw me and it is my oldest sister. She is in the room to my left, partially hidden by a white wall partition. She sits in the corner of an over sized, maybe sectional couch. We exchange words. I am embarrassed that she caught me double dipping and try to laugh it off. She tells me that she will bring me a bowl to put the soup I have touched in. Players and Connections: My older sister and overeating. Event Sequence: At gatheringRun into DC 1 and 2.Question DC 2 concerning real-life events.Assess and select food.Sit and eat.Question ethical behavior.Sense entity.Converse with DC 3. Symbolism: 1st to eat, Signposts: Poor decisions met with shame. Questions: What is going on brain? Thoughts, feelings, and guesswork: CLASSIFIED