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#265 - WILD - 5:10AM I have trouble getting back to sleep after my WBTB but this works well for WILD. Some HI forms into me lucidly organizing random stuff on a table. I was lucid but really into making everything look right. After a moment full lucidity kicks in and I realize the dream is ready for me. This is it. I remember my goal to eat a magic mushroom so I stand up and start to walk out, but the dream does not feel stable enough and I can tell from experience that any scene change will kill the dream. I turn and pace the living room for a while. I realize that I do not have to be outside to find a mushroom growing. Anything can happen in my dream. I look down at the floor but only see my bare feet and notice that is the first time if ever seen them in a dream. They seems to be moving really fast and blurry. The dream begins to fade so I sit back down at the kitchen table and examine more objects. One looks like a tall blue pump spray bottle. Everything is really blurry and I cannot make out any other detail. I notice my mom next to me. She seems to be sweeping the floor. With out looking at her I say, "Mom." No answer. "Mom. MOM." Now I am yelling. "What?" She says. I ask, "Have you seen my mushroom top?" Before she answers I have a FA. I open my eyes and it all feels real. I do not care to DJ just yet and I want to <PERSON> back in but something strange happens. The lights in the bedroom begin to flicker on and off. I feel afraid and dare not move. The blanket is partially over my face and I cannot see who is at the light switch. I yell my wife's name but there is no answer. I try to get up but I feel paralyzed. Now I understand. I say, "This is just SP. It is not even real." Knowing this frees me to move. When I stand up, it is totally dark. I turn to the light switch but see a shadow cast on the wall in front of me. It looks monstrous and reminds me of the movie, "A Monster In Paris", that we watched yesterday. I am not afraid of it up I want to stabilize the dream. I turn to fight it up the rooms goes dark again. I blindly attack and feel like I am hitting something. I hear an external noise that wakes me up.