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12-4 Fragment (a): <PERSON> with vape-ish thing that has a rubber cover on mouthpiece, like a new paintbrush. He gives me douche chills. He is explaining something in a condescending way? Darkish wood room? Dream (i): In a very dark crawlspace/attic/room, sneaking around, do not want to be found. Strong sense of foreboding, remember thinking "oh no" after feeling fear, remembering in-dream that fear/expectation will cause the thing to happen. I do not get close to lucidity though. Strange how I can peripherally recognize things to do/not do in a dream, and realize them, but not realize I am in a dream. Fell through with companion onto a palette/tub in the corner of the room; window across the way? Transition, outside 8 on dog walking path by poop bag station. Talking to dad about politics/voting? Notable as the first time I have dreamed about this area of 8, which is strange because I have walked the path thrice daily for over a year living here. <PERSON>): FA-type dream, but in totally distorted version of 8. Has almost the same vibe as (i) (foreboding), but now F is here. She is gotten dressed in her pajamas again and is sitting on the couch, I join her there (third person moment). Notable because in the waking between (i) and (ii), I MILDed that I wanted to return to the dream location of (i), and in a sense they were very close together in a way that I cannot quite put my finger on. It is just that "dream understanding" that comes to you. Fragment (b): Series of in-bed FAs. Lucid #71: In a house, do not remember the first few moments of the dream, suddenly gain consciousness and push my hands into a wall. Feels cool. When I pull them back out, I have rotten/termite-eaten wood one one of my index fingers. Something looks wrong about my wrist where the (sleeve?) meets my hand -- the overlap is backwards. It looks my hand (which looks totally real) is actually a glove, and the sleeve is my real body? So I pull off my hand like a glove, and underneath there is a foot! It is not mine because it is not hairy and looks feminine, and the toes are painted blue (#08b looks like a match). I feel it with my hand and then put it against my face to see if it feels real -- it does! I have a hand foot! How strange. I do not know for sure now, but I remember after waking thinking that the senses to my hand felt different -- it did not feel like I could control a hand and those nerve impulses would be "translated" into foot movements -- it actually felt like controlling another foot in the place of my hand. If that makes sense. But there is no way to verify that now I guess. Anyway, after feeling the foot, I was torn between sitting down and meditating and teleporting to my dream world, and I ended up hesitating and woke up. Fragment (c): Series of controllable hypnagogic episodes. First, a series of faces that I could move, and who had personalities I could understand. I do not remember the second. I also had one or more dreams after this but lost them. Notes: Excited about the December Contest!