Voices

I am laying in bed, trying to fall asleep (or so I think I am), when I hear my co-worker tell me that he just let us go completely. I try this, and feel amazing as my body falls asleep while my mind is awake. I go in and out of a really cool sensation, then feel a strange presence in my room. I sense a being that is made completely of shadows and fear - the essence of darkness and evil itself. Quite a strong presence, but not a very happy one. It is either a spirit or a demon, I am not sure which it is, but there is definitely a presence here, and it does not like me being alive apparently. I do not mind that, and try to mind my own business, but this spirit/demon seems to attack me. I am partially crushed psychically, and have trouble breathing. I start saying a mantra to ground me in the experience of safety, but feel too intense of a presence that is trying to harm me to even remember my mantra. "Alright, then I guess I will just feel love for everyone since I cannot do anything else" It turns out that works more or less to pacify the demon/spirit thing. I feel like I am left alone briefly, and allowed to collect myself. But not for long, as I feel like I am having my soul ripped from my body very shortly thereafter. I am pretty much okay with that, I figure the end has to come sometime, but it is a little surprising. Still not many options for what to do, so I just feel love for everyone again. It seems like when I deeply do this, I am invincible. Not in the sense that my body will not die, but that my mind will not cease. It feels good to love everyone anyway. I hear it say in a rhaspy clicky kind of voice, "<PERSON> and hold Z level now" Still not sure if it is a dream or not, I decide to just get up because it does not feel like I am getting much rest facing this challenge right now, and there are things I must be doing. At the very least, I feel like I can handle these kind of things now. Not that I enjoy it, but that it is not much of an issue.