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Preface: Took Benadryl (allergy med) because I ate something that was making my face and ears itchy. I also lit some incense to make myself feel more comfortable, so that I could fall asleep. I am in a house with my sister. We are packing, moving and throwing stuff away. A lot of our belongings are in piles in the middle of the rooms. Broken furniture makes up most of it. In real life, we are always concerned about leaving the doors opened or unlocked because we have had a burglary in the past. In the dream, when I walked in I did not even bother closing the door behind me. My sister did not care about it either and made a remark, something like,, "I do not care what happens to this stuff". I walked around the house and I could see that many of the rooms were organized in the same way: small boxes and belongings against the wall, and trash piled in the center of the rooms. I cannot find my jeans in all this mess, so I ask my sister if she wants to go to Burlington (shopping) with me. She is not turned on by the idea and tells me she does not want to go. I leave without her. From my house, I walk outside the door and I am in some kind of shopping community, which ends up getting darker and becoming a mall. I am trying to get to a clothing store I like, but there is a crowd. There are two girls in front of me. Both of them are shorter than me and they are taking their time walking. They go into the same store I am trying to get to and I am annoyed. I find a denim jumpsuit that I think is cute, but I do not take it off the rack. I see another that is gray; I take it off the rack and say that its the wrong color, so I put it back. The girls have already reviewed my shopping rack so I keep shopping. Fragment I am driving on a freeway to get back to a mall. I have been there before. While I am driving, I decide to take another route or the route I think is correct. The highway turns into grass and I am at a dead end. There is a man standing there with dark hair, I think he is holding a hammer? Notes: I 'm a little disappointed that I have not been able to wake up in my dreams lately. I have been concentrating on my yoga practice but I think something else is missing. I can explore more through meditation.