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Today I went for my daily meditation session later...at 19.00...usual routine, make sure I am warm enough, dim the light right down, play quiet backgound music. I realise that I am drifting into hypnagogic sleep because I suddenly realised that I was slumping forward from my normal upright stance (I estimate that at least 20 minutes had passed because the music is on its 2nd loop.) As I slowly straightened with my eyes still closed (I am well-conditioned to remain with my eyes shut and I always do things like correcting posture or dealing with itches as if it is a slow ritual...so as not to break the atmosphere) Instinctively now, I thought "create a square." What I got was a much larger square than normal and inside it was a clear, quite-detailed black and white outline of a house (was it more sepia? Maybe). Then reaction set in...part of me is conditioned to "bring the mind home" for meditation...part of me felt the excitement I got when I first started getting lucid events because this might be another step towards successful visualisation ...and the image faded. What I now know about brain neurons (my minions as I now choose to call them) is that they begin to work in unison on a set task and the more they band together the better the result. Dare I hope that they have taken the "create a square" task a stage further? Right my little minions...if so start recruiting more because I am going to try and use meditation to get to a focussed state of hynagogia and train myself to (a) keep calm when I get an image and (b)...the difficult bit...try and move further into a sleep state while remaining partially aware (a WILD of course) I used to regularly defy convention and attempt to WILD during the day by merely relaxing. I used to get strong SP and really strong "rushes" (as if I was going somewhere) But a dream never formed and I eventually abandoned my attempts because I began to wonder if the strength of the sensations might in fact be damaging something (perhaps my minions were getting a bit punchy.) Maybe my current ability to meditate is what was lacking before and I am reaching a more relaxed state. (certainly I cannot create images when fully awake) Interestingly though, I am not getting SP or the "rushes" this time around...maybe they will return when I train myself to hang loose and let things move forward. As I always say...only time...and continued experimentation will tell.