An account

As I have already said, it is been a disappointing Winter...cold and pretty uninspiring on the dream front, with fairly poor dream-recall, only 2 short lucids and generally drab dreams (some almost unfathomable.) But on other fronts, it is been interesting. My discovery that I can sometimes meditate/fall asleep and conjure up images and schemas. But, even that comes and goes. I recently watched a Youtube vid of a guy called Koi Fresco (something fishy about him) and he recites "I am awake" twice every hour. I have often done the mantra thing, but with me, it is always been "I am dreaming...it is a dream." So, I decided to try his method. For 4 days I diligently worked though that mantra at least 3 times every hour, aware of every bodily sensation and my surroundings. Nothing so far.zilch. But, other things crop up. I have noticed an improvement in dream recall if I WBTB after watching one of <PERSON> brain documentaries (it gets me thinking about the function of the brain maybe). But, more interestingly, on 2 occasions (one was just now) I have laid down for a while and maybe, when I start to drift, a vivid image starts to form. It is always green (that is my preferred location, a meadow or a wood) I get the "rush" and my heart rate speeds up (I can control that...always been able to) but I find breathing difficult and I have to breath deeply and that is distracting. But again I managed to hold the image for quite a while before it gradually died away. Of course, I need such an experience after a few hours sleep and a WBTB (so we are all told) and I am alert and thinking so I had to get up and write this to get it out of my system. Then I am back to bed (with maybe some melatonin...if it only helps me off to sleep that is something.) Still trying.