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Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids WBTB 30 MIN. Coffee. 2MG melatonin. 200MG B6. SSILD and thinking about TOTM Dream time: about 4:20-5:00AM Jingle Bells in the Snow TOTM I am somplace trying to sleep. I think my mom is there. I am sitting in an office chair and cannot get comfortable. Then I lean back and relax. I let my head back unsupported and my arms are limp. I begin to feel like the chair is spinning. I notice how dream like this feels and I become lucid. I get up and notice that I am at work. This part of the plant we call the barn. I walk to go outside. Everything looks as it should. I remember TOTM and begin singing <PERSON> as I walk out side. "Jingle bells, Jingle bells, Jingle all the way." I feel self conscious of my singing and lower my voice. It sound amazingly real and I wonder if I am really dreaming."Oh what fun it is to ride in a..." Now it is a whisper but I am still singing,"one horse open sleigh. Jingle be." For some reason I think I might wake someone up. I begin to doubt that I am dreaming. I think if I am dreaming I will not feel cold. As I step out side I notice the temp. It is warm and but I can feel that my feet are bare and cold. I know it is cold in real life and I would never be bare foot at work. Ok good. I want to make it snow. I forget all about singing. I see the maintenance building and the awning. Just like real life. I am still wondering if I am dreaming. I think if I am dreaming I will not feel cold. I start saying "Snow" over and over.All most instantly I see a fine mist in the air. I think it looks like sleet. I step out from under the awning. I feel it on my face and hands. It feels so real. But its not snow so I concentrate. I imagine flakes in the air. I see a few for up close and it looks like large pixelated snow flakes in my face. Still was not good enough. So, I focused on seeing snow on the ground. First I see piles in the parking lot. They are dirty like someone cleared the lot. I put my hands in it and notice I am now wearing heavy gloves and warm clothes. It feels slushy like it is melting. I look in the sky and try harder. Now I see heavy snow coming down. I look to the grassy area and it is thickly covered. I jump on my hands and knees and whaller in it for awhile. I notice how the snow sounds like rain but looks like snow. At that moment I hear a distant crack of thunder. I remember how sivaison wanted a blizzard. I think that would be cool. So I begin to visualize that. Now I see a wall off thick swarming white snow coming toward me. I begin having trouble keeping my vision firm and stable now. I am engulfed in it and carried away. I am flying now. I look up and can see clouds. I try to focus and I think maybe I can still pull of the advanced task of Aurora Borealis. I begin to fly upward but the blizzard catches up to me and engulfs my vision in a bright white light. I am now in my bed. I think about the white transition and wonder if I am still dreaming. I have a strong feeling I am but by son is crying. The bassinet is in the wrong place. It is at the foot of the bed and I move to him. I try to pick him up but it is all moving trashing blankets.I feel confused and I can feel anything with my hands now. Then, my wife comes in the room and I let her tend to him. I do a nose plug now and confirm I am dreaming. I relax a bit but now I really wake up.