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My experience with lucid dreaming has been a difficult one. I was able to lucid dream as far back as I can remember (I guess around 3), but I am always unable to control them, I just realize I am dreaming. Also, anytime I attempt to purposely induce a lucid dream, it does not work, but if I just go to sleep as normal, I will often have them. It is really confusing. So, what would be a good technique to induce lucid dreaming? Most methods that I have tried, failed. Also, does anyone have advice to better control my dream when I become lucid? Because they often go like this: I realize I am dreaming and think, "oh cool, I finally had a lucid dream", then things go bad (more on that in a minute), OR I am in the middle of an extremely surreal dream and suddenly become conscious of everything being so over the top, I know I must be dreaming, and become lucid. Now, when I say "things go bad", every time upon becoming lucid, my dream takes a turn for the worse. It will turn into a scary dream of some sort either with a psycho murderer suddenly appearing in my dream and trying to kill me, zombies chasing me, or a demonic entity attacking me. I will repeat to myself repeatedly "this is just a dream" or "I am in complete control" and will attempt to change the dream, but to no avail. So I end up becoming so freaked out by my dream induced "monster" and try to "wake myself up". It is a never ending cycle that I have tried for years to break and it is beyond frustrating, so any advice on why this is happening or ways to change it will be GREATLY APPRECIATED. Thanks for reading.