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I was in a psychiatric hospital laying with my online friend <PERSON>. We were in love with each other. Later I realized I should not have layed with her because it is a sin to act homosexuality. Then I got to an elevator and I chose down because I did not want to get to the top of the building and jump off. It was heaven or hell though, I should have chose up. I got to the bottom and walked out and there was a man sitting at a desk. I asked him if he was <PERSON>. He said yes and i sat next to him, and i knew he was lying and that it was actually the devil and I was in hell. Then I was walking outside millions of people were walking and I saw my cousins <PERSON> and <PERSON>. Then I did a sidekick because someone shoved me. Then 3 old men grabbed me and they were cannibals and they were eating me with white plastic spoons. I was praying to wake up, I was saying <PERSON> wake me up. I was not able to kick or defend myself in any way. The old men eating me was a metaphor for me being afraid of growing old, that I would be consumed by old age and be no longer strong and beautiful and able to do figure skating and gymnastics. I already died though so I will not grow old. Scary dream though. Lucid the whole time or most of the time.