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Every night it differs between two scenes... I need to get control of these or i will go insane. 1st Dream Journal Entry but i have been having these dreams since i was a child. Hidden message i cannot decode without gaining control... so here we go.wish me luck... Dream 1: I ''wake'' up outside of my fathers old house a large thatch roof house... i am in the garden.. There are soldiers everywhere they are searching for something.. I have no control of my movements or actions... My feelings are fear... All of a sudden i am noticed by some soldiers who start to chase me wielding shortswords. I run with all my might but i am small in my dream and one step to me is five steps for my chasers. i see a fence that can be scaled and head towards it my heart is pounding i am afraid in my arms i am holding a teddy bear of sorts and hugging it closely well i run..tears are streaming down my eyes. i start to scale the fence and peak to the top.. My hope rises and as i reach the other side... There are countless soldiers surrounding me...(out of the pan into the fire) One walks up to me with a smile on his face...he says everything will be alright... he takes my teddy bear away from me gently... and then proceeds to force the shortsword deep into my stomach piercing through my clothes and sliding it in as if it were nothing.. i go cold...it is such an odd sensation...not pain but uncomfortable.as he lays me onto the ground i start to black out blood running out the side of my mouth... he places the teddy into my arms and they walk away calmly... as i slowly fade into darkness i wake up into reality from this dream.. //notes// My stomach feels uncomfortable after this dream...i am short of breathe and sweating as if i was running...and my nose almost always is bleeding. // So yea i guess this is my first dream journal <URL> if that is possible insight would help...i need to learn to become lucid...if i can just escape there or change my path in the dream.or something...i will post the second dream shortly..i know this was a long one and i apologize just needed to get it out...i just recently joined this site...hoping for positive feedback...maybe even somebody who can relate to this and help me.. Have a Great Day Everyone Regards The Bear