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I am looking at a post on the internet, a beautiful garden of someone. After admiring it long enough, I try to scroll past. I can not. I try to look away at the screen. I CAN NOT. "Dreaming" says my logical processor. I have been here many times before, it can no longer fool me. Something like this only happens in dreams. I curse my bad luck, having a lucid dream during my midday nap when there is too much light in the room. Time for experiments. Moving feels like forcing myself, so I fix that by reminding myself that is an illusion. Moving in dreams is effortless, my situation just makes me believe I am paralyzed. I roll out of the bed. For a moment I see something different in my left eye, but the vision snaps back to the ceiling of my room, which I misunderstood as a garden previously. I try to abandon visual input and focus on feeling. I vividly feel myself rolling off the bed and I continue rolling. I keep on rolling and still I cannot escape the ceiling in my vision, the real stimulus is just too powerful to ignore. I try harder to push myself out of that experience, like sinking into a daydream while awake. I "wake up" the garden post is scrollable now and while I read people's comments on it, I am also exploring the garden in person, being in two places at once. Shortly after I actually wake up. (I sleep with eyes open, so this happens sometimes.)