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I dreamt I went into exs house using hidden spare key. I seemed to have known he was away camping with his gf for the weekend. I felt anxious about him coming home with me being there but seemed to be just sat watching TV. I then got up to rearrange the furniture because I did not like the way he had it. Suddenly it seemed dark and I realised it was Sunday night and he would probably be home soon. I started to panic and tidy up and turn TV off. I then heard the back door open and him talking to his gf. I managed to just get out the front door and gently close it. But it was too late, I was half way up the road when he came running up to me asking why I would just been at his house. I would been uncertain whether he noticed I would been inside. He asked me what I was doing. I made up some really lame excuse about there being a few break ins in the area and had heard he was away so I went in to make sure it was secure and put his spare key inside. I do not think he believed me and I asked him not to call the police. I was really worried now and he just said he would have to think about it. I have not spoken to him for nearly a year and we were only casually dating for around 8months. When I seen him in the dream he looked uglier than I remembered. I do not even know why I went into his house in my dream. I had a similar dream about my previous ex a long time ago. I would been with him and lived with him. In that dream, I would dreamt I was in the house pottering round and then it dawned on me that I did not live there and had a panic that I needwd to get out without being seen. In both dreams I was in the house alone with a fear of being caught/ not being able to get out unseen. On a separate note I would just like to add, I would never break in/go into anyone's house without permission. And also do not have any feelings towards either ex. I just think it is a strange dream to have especially twice about two different people. Makes me wonder whether it reflects how our lives have changed and I am not welcome/ not happy being in their enviroment/around them. Or maybe a part of me misses being apart of their lives but feels sad because it would never work.