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o over the past few days I have been having a mixture of nightmares and, 'troubled' dreams. Here is just a brief record of a few so I can remember them. 1 - I have children. One of them's about 15. He gets murdered and it hurts so badly. Then my boyfriend (husband at this time) dies and I am left heartbroken with two kids. 2 - My dad goes out to Afghanistan. My mum has a really bad car accident and ends up in a coma, I hear on the radio my dad's dead, told his parents instead of my mum. My mum dies. I have to leave our house because it is renting from the military. I am homeless before exams. 3 - I wake up being burnt really badly. My entire right side of my face is beyond repair, lots of scars and skin grafts, most of my body is burnt. Loose all confidence. Get persuaded out one day and I make a child cry. I wake up properly after killing myself. 4 - My boyfriend gets burnt badly. He draws into himself but goes about his daily life. I am supposed to be going somewhere with him and I get on the bus and only when it drives off do I realize he is not with me. I get off and run back to his. Talk to him, persaude him out. We argue, I leave in a hurry, forget something and when I return find him saying I am not worth the effort. We break up. I run away and do not ever see him again. Few others I cannot remember at the moment.