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In this dream I had a hysterectomy operation (something I may need to have in reality, not certain yet, but got mentioned by my doctor). While on the operating table, I died or almost died, and had a near death experience. I knew that to return back to life, i had to find enough will to live, but i was not sure whether I had enough. I did find enough only to "wake up" from the near death to a scene on the operating tabel where I was opened up for the operation, in pain, and the medical staff unaware what had just happened to me. I woke up from this at 1am quite shake up and could not fall back to sleep without a half melatonin dose. Depression sucks.