Screaming or howling

April 16, 2010 Synopsis: My reality checks fail to help me realize I am dreaming. But after falling out of a window I finally become lucid. Lucidity Denial! I had a dream about me and my cousins, bugs, birthday parties, cake and deciding whether to eat with plastic utensils or real silverware. I woke up, and I was going to write down the dream in detail. But I just fell asleep instead. (that happens a lot ) I am outside in a parking lot, and some guy has a really nice futuristic motorcycle. He sees me eyeing at it and he yells at me. "What do you think you are doing! You cannot ride my bike!". I back away from his motorcycle, giving him some space, and I just explain I just wanted to look at it. I do not even know how to ride one! I just think Japanese motorcycles are pretty. But then he laughs "Nah I am just kidding, you can ride it!" I am hesitant but then its clear NOT riding his bike would insult him. Really, he practically bullied me to test ride his sweet bike. I take it for a quick test ride, but only around the parking lot, and only at parking lot speeds! The handling of the motorcycle is a bit weird. The kind of weird that only happens in dreams. I always miss this sign. I thank him and go back inside to what should be a store. But it is my bedroom instead. I do not remember all of the events, but it is like I spend the whole morning with my sisters. A very 'normal' morning. Suddenly I get this strange feeling. Something feels.wrong.off. But I cannot explain it. I ask my sister if she feels weird, and she just shrugs. I look outside the window, and then I think "What if I am dreaming?". I look all around me and at the trees and green things growing outside. I shake my head. "No that is impossible!" I tried to recall my day. I remember waking up from a dream about my cousins. And I remember.eating breakfast. Everything seemed normal, even me testing out a strangers motorcycle at the time seemed normal. But for some reason, I cannot stop myself inching closer and closer to the window. And I just want to jump so badly! One part of my mind is screaming I am dreaming, the other part is begging my sister to help me stop my insanity before I hurt myself. I fall out the window. I am drifting slowly, and peacefully, to the ground wondering if it is going to hurt. But then the wind carries me up and over the trees and I am happy to be lucid and flying and dreaming! I soar over the tree tops. But then suddenly I end up in a weird dream landscape. Boxes and boxes and boxes and boxes of toy dinosaurs in packaging! I did not like this dream scene. So I grab a box and I try to enter the painted picture on the box. Very briefly I enter a primal world where the dinosaur toys came to life. But the dream was unstable and I woke up. This time for real, I think (and if you are reading this, you could be dreaming!)