Knocking

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids WBTB WILD-fail B6 200MG Weak DILD 6:27 AM I am at the hospital after my son was born. I am in a waiting room. There are people around I ask a man some questions and then the falls asleep. I push the man on the floor and say, "That is what you get for falling asleep during an interview." My son got knocked out of my wife's arms when I did that and falls on the floor. I pick him up. He is swaddled and I say, "Look hes ok." For some reason he looks like a plastic doll. Now I am laying on a bed. I tell a nurse that my wife and son went home but I wanted to nap for I leave. The bed is next to a nurses station. I try to sleep but get interrupted constantly. There was something about a shirt. And a few other annoyances. I cannot remember. I see <PERSON> from Parks and Recreation. She is giving me the eye like she wants me. Then I see <PERSON> mouth the words "Go talk to her." I could not be bothered at the moment. All I knew was that I was supposed to be sleeping. I close my eyes and I hear a voice say, "He is out of touch with reality. His mind is always consumed with reality testing to the point that he does not really live his life." I am focused on lying still. I want to say that noting could be farther from the truth. Now I am in the drive way of my house. I have the car door open getting my son out. My wife is all upset and worried about him. Then something clicks and I remember that I was trying to WILD. I tell my wife, "It does not matter." But I am saying it to myself as well. She fades to the background and I feel half awake and half asleep. I pause thinking. I see a vague impression of my son swaddled. I think I should try to stabilize but at the same time I do not believe I can. I try anyway. I lay myself over him. It is all I could think of at the moment. He dissolves into me. And I fall unconscious. NLDs short version The power goes out but the TV is on. I see fireworks on TV but the same ones outside. It was suppsed to be in CJ but its my neighborhood. I feel confused about that. We go outside to see more but it stops. I have <PERSON> as my guitar teacher but the guitar looks like a rock band guitar painted black with a ton of buttons. I jam out on it to some <PERSON> type rock. I have no idea what I am doing but it sounds amazing. I feel dissatisfied and grab a real acoustic guitar and see the floor is disgusting rotted with tons of spiders poring out. I think I should mix up some more bug spray and then fix the floor. At my exes house. She wants me to take a picture of her friend starting her car. I cannot make the camera work. It is the strangest camera ever. Tons of buttons. A few time I have it pointed backwards. I feel like an idiot. I give up and tell the girls it is time to go. D starts crying and a strange liquid flows down her. I was very dissatisfied with that lucid. I would have had a better chance but we got up at 6:30 to go to the parade. I tried to take a lucid nap and WILD a little after two. I woke twice after each hour and could not remember a thing. Tonight WBTB.