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I saw my fear of going to university... Not making any friends OTL. It is for the first year students. For the first two weeks, we were familiarize ourself to university by routinely doing things as a group (eating luch, going around classes like a pre school student) (chicks following a duck) As I pass a classroom, I spoted one of my best friend. She was focused on her studying. At a lunch time. 1st year student had to eat lunch in this very dark and deep pit-hole looking tower (That seems to have no end to it) I did not realize it was a prank, so me and my other friends sat in one of the brightest looking spot... As I was eating rice... I got scared of the pit hole ... It looked like a hell's gate... warm, moist filled air swooped with some disgusting smell of garbages... It was just ... unpleasant. I kept on shaking on my chopstick and end of spreading all my rice on everywhere, including on my friends' lap... They got sick of it... and try not to talk to me afterward... (made me feel abandoned... behind a group) As I reflecting on my dream, I realize it was a fear I have, going to university... where I do no know anyone. That fear allows me to avoid anything involving the university (making a timetable... keeping a deadline) It is also one of my biggest stress... which makes me even hard to LD. "You need to be awake in a real life, to be awake in your sleep." I need to face this fear for my sake to have a nice LD.