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D1: Non-lucid nightmare: I was being held down and raped by some man I did not know. It was so intense I woke up. I tried to go back in to get a lucid out of it to do the TOTM but no dice. D2: Non-Lucid: I was with a big group of people and we were pillaging a house for random stuff. We were lost and just came across it. The family was the Duggar Family from the show 19 kids and counting, (Was weird cuz I quit watching that show some time ago) The father got really angry and was trying to make us leave. D3: Non-Lucid: I was in a flying hospital. Yup, I flying hospital indeed, lol. I needed to get medical attention for something but never new why. I had 2 female friends w/ me. I was trying to find my husband (not any husband I have had in this lifetime) I did not look like me. Both mine and his appearance kept changing. It was really weird. And our genders kept changing too! Finally I found him and we closed the curtain on an open ER Room w/ the curtain but it would not close all the way around. A couple of my friends, both women whom I seemed to be really good friends w/ were saying "GO for it!" And watched us have sex, lol. About an hour before I went to bed my husband and I had an intense conversation about how we met and a revelation I had during the day. We both feel that some other force kept pulling us together no matter what we did. He pursued me for 3 yrs before I gave in. It was an intense 3 yrs. We also both married other people briefly but it just was not right. He would always turn up behind me at work and freak me out, lol. But I would anticipate him and he would make my heart about jump out of my chest each time w/ attraction. I was always afraid he was a coke/meth addict because he is tall and slim and has a lot of energy. I was afraid because I used to be an IV drug user in my twenties and I do not want anything or anyone like that around me. But then it turned out I should have just asked him earlier and believed him. Everyone we know was like "It is about time!" in the end. We still till this day call him my stalker, lol. But ironically we both believe we were supposed to marry to the people in between all of this, because they both died during the year following our marriage (also 3 yrs later, I made him wait again, lol). But before they died they both changed in some ways. My ex was always very bitter and angry. He was dying from liver and kidney failure and turned to God in his final months and <PERSON>'s ex was never bitter towards me and actually liked seeing us happy together, she died in a fire... Ironically my marriage to this man ended because of his health. I told him he was going to die and had to change his eating habits and I refused to sit back and drag my kids down this road of slowly watching him kill himself in such a way. I new w/o a doubt he would die. He then went back to live w/ his mother and sister whom he had lived w/ many yrs before he was w/ me so he was never alone... Anyway I think that is where my dreams from tonight came from. Except the first one. I think that was because Meesha Cat was mauling my head to get up and feed her and it triggered that rape dream cuz he kept grabbing my hair. Of course I am sure some of what we talked about that I did not mention here was helpful w/ that dream. We had a pretty in-depth conversation./COLOR]