Green light

06.14.2011First Real WILD (WILD) NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID Okay so I am not so good at WILD. I have tried many times and had very limited success. My goal for the summer is to be able to use WILD reliably and be able to get a lucid when ever I want. This morning I decided to have an extra long WBTB at 6:00 am. I stayed up until I felt like I could fall asleep in like 5 minutes which was around 9:00am and then attempted WILD. I was definitely tired I managed to catch myself loosing awareness a couple times and realized that I needed to do it more slowly to prevent waking myself back up to much. I slipped into a dream without realizing it. I was still doing my WBTB and I was eating a whole bunch of candy. I did not know why I was eating so much junk food and thought I should stop but it tasted really good. I woke back up. I caught myself again and knew this was my chance. I was on the edge of dreaming. I heard hypnogogic music and thought it was my ipod. I did not move and felt the sensation of numbness spread thought my body. I then felt the vibrations of SP. It all felt pretty weird and then it sort of went away and the mucid stopped. I stayed still a bit longer to make sure the dream fully set in. I did not feel any different than I did before but hoped that I was actually in a dream and sat up. I pulled the sleep mask off my face and my room was very dark. I knew it had to be a dream because the sun was no longer shining through my window. I did a quick noes pinch RC and confirmed it. I needed to get out of the darkness because it was destabilizing me. I managed to stabilize a bit and walked into the family room but that room was dark too. I flipped the switch but nothing happened. Light switches in my house never work in lucids. D: I knew that if I just believed it would turn on it would but no matter how many times I flipped it up and down nothing happened. I tried yelling ou Shazam! when if flipped it but still nothing. I thought of a flash light or something and saw my pvc lightsaber prop all though it should be somewhere in my room. I picked it up and turned it on and it was a real lightsaber again. It gave me a little bit of green light but not much. Its always satisfying to cut stuff up so I cut strait through my brick fireplace. I knew I should get out of here and to somewhere brighter. I turned and saw the mirror I use to teleport. I was going to step through it but I was not sure if I should risk letting it take me to a random place. My mom walked in and did not say anything and I randomly destabilized and before I even knew it I was no longer dreaming. I tried but failed to reenter the dream. I am glad I managed to get my first real WILD but am frustrated about waking up and not getting my goals done. It seems like I keep destabilizing and waking up before I even realize that I am unstable. In fact it takes me a second to even realize that I am not dreaming anymore and I never have a chance to stabilize. I should get back into the habit of nibbling on dream cookies thought my lucids.