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And I promise. All without the aid of any "dream enhancer." I am pretty sure I know the hidden meanings, but I want to write it down anyway, because parts of it are so darn weird. It started out, with me being about 4-5 years old. My mother even had her 70's hairstyle and she was young again It was night time and I had a twin sister (IRL I do not even have a sibling, let alone a twin). Somehow I found out when I was 5 that I had my right leg cut off just below the hip (mid thigh say), I was walking around on a prosthetic leg (ugly plastic barbie doll leg made for "5 year old me"). Then I was healed - suddenly my natural leg was back under me, and no one wanted to tell me that I had once even lost my leg or worn a prosthetic - it was like "pretend it never happened", but somehow I learned that this whole thing had happened, I had a moment of lucid realization (wow, shocker to hear that at a lucid dreaming forum), and suddenly I was filled with exhilaration because I knew about this, and I knew I was not supposed to know about it. For some reason, the "missing leg" also included a "missing twin sister", they were somehow connected. Dream changes. I am in a strange little dress shop, filled with ORANGE, and in-your-face colorful clothes that I would not be caught dead in. A friend of mine named <PERSON> was there, and he had something in his hand, looked like a tiny galaxy but it was a tiny black hole/vortex that was sucking everything, even light, he was catching these things, they were quite a few of them hidden in the clothing of this shop, and we were going around finding them. I was cautioning him about touching them, saying "You might lose a leg doing that so be careful" and I am telling him my story about how I had to wear a prosthetic leg as a child (<PERSON>, mind fucked me, the dream from before was now a back story to this one and what is hilarious is that in this segment of the dream, I was aware that my story was from the previous dream). Dream switched and we were hiding in a huge building, like a school, only we were hiding in a stairway that went UP, and DOWN, and you could not see the ceiling or floor. There was a window so you could see outside, and the weather was rainy. There was fog all around, sometimes even in the stairway. I felt like I had to get something, so I woke up. Prosthetic leg/losing a leg not having a leg to stand onfeeling crippledlosing my partner, watching him die makes me feel alone and I am scaredlosing part of myselfmy mom being gonefeeling like i cannot make it on my own Tiny black holes living life with no hope for tomorrowplaying with firefeeling out of controlfeeling like I cannot stop itfighting to control an unstoppable force of nature Colorful clothing having to "put on" a persona in order to survivespiritual armor hiding in the stairway with no end to up or down in sight its the best thing to do when you cannot move or do anythingwaiting for a direction so i can move with it